I Hate Niggas…Of All Colors…Even Myself?

I love Chris Rock’s Bring The Pain “bit” on Niggas, because it speaks to the deepest most guttural truth many people have. Though I don’t like the relation ‘nigga’ is paired with Black. Or it’s predecessor ‘nigger’. I’m not offended in the sense where these words give me personal pause, because I’ve resolved that within myself through education, self-reflection, and a lot of love/encouragement for great people that raised and taught me into a man.I speaking more to global sociocultural aspects which more often then not govern the framework we have to educate people out of.

There is a piece of self-hatred that I believe Black people by and large have to deal with and self hatred for others as well seeing that we are all one race of people. This is my personal experience. You don’t want to admit hating yourself, because it is painful, but what about your Mother or Father…still too painful? Okay your brother or sister…still too much? Okay your friends and neighbors…getting easier to project your cultural displeasure and denouncements now??

Well we can journey the six degrees of hatred outside of ourselves, but it will still lead back to within us as individuals. You can deal with the a problem without dealing with the pathology and you can’t deal with the pathology outside in, but from the inside out…

I hate niggas…a clean convicted controversial, yet casual comment. Casual in the since that as long as we keep it about “those niggas over there” and not the nigga staring us back in the mirror first it is fun and easy to talk about.

I’m not saying we are all niggas or trying to defend a state of seeming shiftlessness, but I am saying that this fervent hatred and emotion when going on about how much we hate niggas is more often fueled by something a lot closer to home that we fail to deal with. That family member struggling with addiction, the scares of slavery still open wounds, the bitter taste of poverty that never fully leaves your tongue, the racialized indignities suffered purely of skin color or more commonly perhaps your economic standing. 

There is a maze of attrition with respects to our humanity toward one another that is as baffling as it is unaddressed. There is so much good (still) to our humanity. One of the best parts is our ability to not just make it through the maze as we can see many animals do, but also have the ability to analyze our shortcomings in getting to a point of solvency. With that we are not only able to improve on our previous efforts but construct mechanisms to measure that improvement and even encourage it. That should be the goal! Lets not just hate niggas, but lets create conditions where there are standards and supports in place to assure there is no need to rest in “niggerdom”. The more resources poured in the more agency given. The more knowledge poured in the more ignorance drowned out. 

I hate that which provokes niggas to be niggas more than I hate niggas.

Look Inward and Bring The Pain indeed… It isn’t about being self righteous, but right within yourself ~

Onajé Malik Lott

Quick acknowledgement that I could have used The Last Poets’ “Niggas Are Scarred Of Revelution” as a reference point as I believe that is where Chris borrows this bit from, but Chris is more close to the gut/raw than the brain/introspection.

The Last Poets - Niggas Are Scared Of Revelution:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cpo11TxSdVg

There are way too many stories like this tasered pregnant lady where cops are abusive and walk. Where “men of the cloth are abusive” and walk. If a person happens to take the time and go through Seminary school, then graduate from the Police academy, then theoretically they would be totally immune from just about any legal accountability. Rape, molestation, murder, assault, thief, intimidation, pedophilia, on and on and on. 

Citizens are punished far greater than those paid and sworn to serve and protect them. Isn’t it a greater crime when the protector becomes the predator? Who’s worst the wolves you can identify or the wolves in sheep’s clothing? As a cop you are given weapons to protect yourself and citizens from crime and you tase small children and pregnant women…word? As a priest/minister you are presented and projected as a “man of God” (which is a load in itself as by definition we would all be) and you abuse that trust to trap children in your web of sexual perversion…word?

If we cannot hold soldiers, police, politicians, and pastors to a standard of decency and accountability for their violence and crimes NOT in the name serving or protecting, then why have laws at all and why should anyone follow them?

The constitution is too conditional a document for it to dictate decency and justice with any conviction. If it is the foundation then no wonder our civility is so suspect…

Here’s to becoming Bishop Doctor Captain Lott  -_-

Onajé Malik Lott

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I’m not going to pretend that I understand homosexuality or that I’m a true champion of gay marriage. I openly admit to being something that I typically don’t like to be on a topic, which is ambivalent toward the matter. It doesn’t effect me one way or the other, so I’m not going to drum up fake concern in order to get a pat on the back.

What does bother me is the taking of a personal choice or a preferred lifestyle and politicizing it. Even worst politicians and people who consider themselves as ‘informed voters’ (oxymoron?) assigning their oh so fluid religious beliefs and pseudo-philosophies to a matter that has no place on a ballot.

The separation of church and state is really non-existent. That is problematic. It makes people who already inherently hypocritical more empowered to unjustly apply their illogical and unjust “beliefs”. It is all good to lean on your religious beliefs only if you are christian or catholic in the US when trying to get a base of support for your cause or to fuel your distraction, but when it comes to actions and being accountable to injustices inflicted on people everyday religion gets trumped by policy and constitutional commandments. 

If we are not putting on a ballot whether or not people can be homosexual, bi-sexual, heterosexual or asexual then why the hell would we care to politicize those same individuals rights to marry, adopt, and operate within that lifestyle in any fashion they care to as long as it is productive and in keeping with whatever standards a citizen should be charged with to add to the greater good?

President Obama made a statement as a man that happens to be a politician, which no matter context or content will always be over politicized and have multiple people spinning the message to help quench their own thirst for attention or more support for their cause. The fact of the matter is he expressed something that is lacking in politics, religion, as well as everyday life…evolution of thought.

We cannot be STUCK. Yes you stand for what you believe and try to be open and gain perspective, but no one will change your mind, but you. With that, if you are being presented with facts and are able to see that things are not as you thought they were there should be a paradigm shift. In many cases that shift will have you show support for many things that you personally do not live, but have grown to understand and appreciate those who do live it.

Bottom line is marriage is as ambiguous as it has proven to be unsuccessful for many of the same reasons gay marriage is even an issue we get distracted by debating. Religion and Politics don’t mix. People will stand on the bible to debate gay marriage, abortion, planned parenthood, but in the same vein stomp all over the bible in support of the things they lust over (guns, money, sex, power, and their perceived right to be considered the moral right).

As a nation we will never build in any positive direction if we are always so willing and eager to tear down others based on race, religion, sexuality, and economic status…As a country was are over 200 years old (236 from day of independence and 225 from the signing of the constitution), but still needs to grow up.

Equality that is situational is not equality really. So for that reason I support Gay Marriage and don’t believe it should be a political issue or something the people have a right to allow or disallow…

Disagree?

If MLK Jr Awoke Today Just To See Where We Are He Would Say…?

Arron McGruder’s take to me is Satire at its best…a lot of truth in harsh words. though we have much to be proud of there is so much that we’ve let go to waste as a nation. I’m not putting short comings on the Black community, because as much as African Americans contributed to this nations growth and forced this country to be a symbol of justice (even if it is by perception only and that ideal has long faded with repeated acts of war and destruction around the globe) frankly with all of the collective influence Africans turned Americans have been we are not the majority. This message applies to the US on whole. You let lewdness and ignorance flow freely it seeps into your institutions (Religion, Education, Legislation, Judicial, Family, etc.) Our politicians are buffoons, our education is not second to none, but second to last, religion is more close to gang affiliation than spiritual guidance, Justice is just a dream or tantamount to a Vegas casino trip, and our Family’s have been beaten down to where parents are no longer the most influential figures in a child’s life and don’t have the time to be in their class, activities, guide their spirits, and discipline their actions as their full time job…they have to work in an overpriced culture with very little value to show for it. 

Here is to a push in a more progressive direction. If you see Onajé Malik Lott slacking hold me accountable. Lets put the best of ourselves on display and make good ideas executed ideas. Lets keep filth where it should be in the basements of our reality and not on the big screens for all to glorify. Our humanity dictates imperfection and even evil, but to glorify the lowest parts of our existence is truly a waste. No one is winning that way. Lets leave this place better than when we came in. 

Skin-Dread Emotions Run Deep

The article posted above was really poignant. 

I really file stuff like this away…Even now I tell my daughter how special she is and how unique she is. These are things that make her beautiful, not blending in. I keep he around people that enforce that. I remember growing up watching people slyly abuse their darker skinned children for no other reason, but what I deemed was self hate. The darker the worst African Americans tend to be toward a person…it is the lead joke or insult, but never the lead compliment…

If most people were honest they would admit and address this ugliness in them. You can be light or darker skinned and have these same thoughts and action. The handsome/cute “to be dark skin” thought process needs to die. It is ugliness worst than the psychological disorder that is racism, because it is SELF Hatred. To hate your self is lowest existence you can exist in. The first woman that called me chocolate sparked that in me…Hell who doesn’t  like chocolate?? This along with Dr. Joy DeGruy’s breakdown of the male self hatred and how it destroys us had me crying in the middle of a crowd.

I know running from painful things mentally has been the communal approach we’ve taken on to “adjust” to being in a space where hatred was/is home…It is past time that we all check ourselves and make sure we believe it if we are going to teach it to our children. Self Love has to be first mission otherwise how do we expect values and any lessons of decency to stick? Rarely can you find someone who love themselves destroying themselves, who love their community destroy their community, etc…

Good piece and an even better topic that needs to be addressed and played out in all homes one one level or another. Re-educate or Reinforce, but don’t ignore it. 

Do you have Skin-Dread or know someone that deals with it?

Onajé Malik Lott (King In My Own Mind)

I was listening to a few interviews and lectures by Will Smith, Dick Gregory, 
Louis Farrakhan, and Cornell West. It was a lot language around hope, awareness, 
recognition, the power in positivity, and the power that exist in humanity 
despite a painful past. It lead me to many feelings and thoughts. I wanted to 
share a few in case others are on a similar journey…

I’m searching for a new mode of attack to get beyond the denial of my own fears 
and to move beyond the externally ascribed and internally accepted limitations 
to achievement…

If you let your fear get the best of you then to the people around you that fear 
will appear to be the best of you. I just cannot live with that being my legacy. 
The world doesn’t need more fearful people. We need more courageous leaders who 
dream and act with conviction. We chant and sing change, we cheer change, we say 
we want/need change, but are we being change? I have been on a fence. I was 
called out and humbled by this. This will no longer do. I owe more and we all 
owe more to one another. 

“You can’t look at dreams as this Big wall to build. You have to take the 
approach that you are going to lay this one brick as perfect as you can, then 
repeat that day after day until eventually you will have that wall…Don’t get 
discouraged by the enormity of the task. Nothing is too great”

This is all to encourage that spirit of desire within. We should be able to see 
our better selves in the eyes of our loved ones. If we really appreciate that 
image then we will aspire to do more. My growth is a collective pursuit, because 
my growth is due to the collective influence of those that love me and those 
that don’t understand me (there are no haters).

Live it. Struggle with it. Overcome it. Believe in it. Enjoy it. It is life and 
we all are in it briefly. Why be wasteful?

Till~

Onajé Malik Lott (King In My Own Mind)